Thursday, February 4, 2010

The Passing of an Old Goat

I recently read a story about remembering an old goat. Never the flashiest, or fastest nor the one to beg for food from humans but his presence was always felt more than seen. He was one of a clan who were rescued about 15 years ago...plenty of time to make an impression. And he his dignity, and quiet manner.

Now why did this story affect me so? Why is it still fresh in my memory days after reading about him? Because I could relate.

Not that I'm ready to pack it in but he and I suffer from the same disease...arthritis. Our lives seem to run parallel in ways that only a fellow traveller could empathize with. Our days of roaming large parcels of land or for me working are essentially over.

I cannot help but think that our new environments are restrictive in many ways,not only square footage. It is a curtain that you are essentially in control of ... will it fall down today or will there be a better tomorrow? Arthritis is funny that way, you never can plan ahead. There are better days and simply awful ones. You cope.

Things you want to accomplish get cast aside for the moment, well, tomorrow will be better. Yes indeed, that is often times the case and you push on. Getting this or that done in the nick of time before things seem to freeze up again. It is not a matter of will it is a matter of 'can'.

This is frustratingly new to me. And I often think I should be finding a way to overcome without getting angry. I need to focus on today no matter how limited my efforts. But unlike the dignified goat I rant and rave and yes there are days I give up.

I have finally found a rheumatologist in these parts. Yes, only by happenchance listening to a conversation in a waiting room did I learn of one. I asked for a referral and got it and am waiting my three months to be seen. See, there is hope.

I learned later that this physician changed his speciality only three years ago seeing the ultimate need in this community for his services. And believe me there is a need and thus the three month wait to be seen.

Since there is the glimmer of hope and perhaps some relief ahead I think I can manage what the goat did.....have a little dignity.

Take care on these icy roads. See you very soon.RD


Jacqui Binford-Bell said...

You don't mention which type of arthritis you have - RA? My father had that and was told more than once by his doctor that keeping moving was essential.

If it is the rather more common type like all us aging active people I highly recommend glucosimin and vitamin e. I nursed my aging shepherd from 9 to an active 14 with it so it is a vitamin that really works.

RD said...

Thanks Jacqui...I have both. It has traveled from knees to hands, wrists, elbows and shoulders. I do take the glucosimin ,calcium, vit D and flax. I think it is more to do with the weather than anything else. That's why I started knitting on that loom keeps my fingers active. The rest of me works fine lol.Getting old is not for the weak. margaret Sometimes I just vent...then go about my business.

Bee's Blog said...

Don't forget what was said elsewhere on this topic. Sugar intake. And as I said if you can take anti inflammatories, Flamar MX is excellent. I can't take it and you know my husband takes it occasionally against doctor's orders - precisely because it does work.